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Wednesday, 10 September 2008

  • sal val.

    in transition.
    not knowing.
    do i go right or left,
    up or down?
    floating here and there
    with no definites,
    but still stuck
    in this place with no future.

    the same music
    penetrates my ears.
    the same people
    with different problems
    and the same future,
    trying to find
    their purpose.

    is this how
    we are to save the world?
    "non-profit"
    "christian" organization.

    was Jesus organized?
    was He on a schedule?
    did He have bosses
    and supervisors
    regulating and directing
    prices and worth?

    do i continue?
    should we all continue
    down this dead-end path,
    where the purpose
    has been jaded,
    where the original meaning
    is no more.

Thursday, 12 June 2008

  • coffee, trees, and imaginations.

    it only takes a spark to start a fire
    and it only takes a fleeting thought for my imagination to begin running wild

    as i was sitting on the porch with my coffee this morning
    i started looking at the trees
    i noticed that one tree appeared to be a very good climbing tree, many years ago
    so far up the trunk the branches were spread out in a way
    that formed an open-hand that probably coaxed many kids to begin climbing

    i wonder if anyone climbed it?

    i imagine someone did
    i imagine many hours of fun
    many hours of imaginations running free

    did they climb to escape the bad guys?
    did they climb to hunt thier dinner?
    did they climb to build a crazy tree-house with a make-shift ladder and a trap door?
    i guess they might have climbed just to simply climb.

    but i would have climbed to build a tree-house
    a tree-house with many rooms and many purposes for the different sections of the house
    my dad would have probably helped me make a ladder
    he would have given me slats of wood, nails, and a hammer
    and i would have probably smashed my finger in the process
    (a good battle wound to show my dedication)

    why do imaginations deminish as we grow older?
    why was my imagined story cut short by the fact that my coffee was running low
    and the fact that i was just sitting out there for no reason
    i didn't have a book, or a newspaper, or even a cat sitting on my lap to encourage me to sit longer
    i got antsy
    i thought of other things i should be doing
    i thought of the fact that the coffee was going right through me and i didn't want to pee my pants

    i thought of writing this all down so i wouldn't forget it.

Saturday, 05 January 2008

  • so i thought ...

    what a semester. really, i don't think anything could ever be so eventful and not eventful at the exact same time. what a semester of learning and changing and discovery. nothing significant happened in any of my classes or even with anything slightly "school" related, ...
    but, work has changed me. time has assisted. friends have accompanied and loved me. Jesus has held my hand. music has affected me. books have distracted me. "Friends" has kept my attention. money has stressed me.
    my apartment has been my safe haven. my friends have done a good job being consistent. coffee has been soothing. the sal val has proved to be the best job on earth.
    so much growth. such an increase in knowledge.
    so many words never escaped my thoughts. my notebook has been somewhat out of reach.
    so distant but so included. thank you.



    a year goes by
    and i can't talk about it

    on my knees
    dim lighted room
    thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
    i'm not faithless
    just paranoid of getting lost or that i might lose
    ignorance is bliss cherish it
    pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
    believe it not
    and fight the tears
    with pretty smiles and lies about the times

    in all my twisted thoughts i see
    Jesus there in between.

Friday, 04 January 2008

  • "it’s a constant process this is;
    growing you into the woman you are to become,
    but when you sense the setting of the sun know it is only rising and has just begun.
    now go fourth, sing songs of faith, and lift up others in the midst of this race.
    and if you can’t keep the pace or lose sight of my face
    know that I’m always near so you need not fear.
    but don’t worry about all that right now;
    just sit here and enjoy the peace
    I offer in my silence.
    when I am silent, I am listening, and not abandoning
    ."

Monday, 24 December 2007

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